Silent Words.

Wait, it’s never too late
for years, i have been sitting on the fence
contemplating whether to go this way
or go the other way;

unable to decide and
unable to comprehend
what i saw and
what i witnessed;

i stayed glued to this fence
occasionally walking to the edge
only to scamper back
to the middle again and again;

never quite really understood
these colourful emotions and
what they were trying to
tell me or do to me;

the cautious person
that life forced me to be
i was sceptical of
life itself;

when the fence that was my home
just gave away under the
onslaught of an external force
that i carefully protected me against;

the time to decide and
the time to take action
was thrust upon me
in one single night;

throwing caution to the wind,
tired of living an existence
for the sake of living,
i jumped out of the fence;

i jumped out of the fence
into the very emotions
that i failed to understand
and kicked out of my life;

seasons change and
as the once silent heart
whispered its way back into my life
the words that were silent, came back alive;

just a couple of simple words
i promised myself i would not cry,
another day comes and goes,
as i reach out to
this thing called life
i fill my heart with love
ready(waiting) to share it with you

.....

Sometimes, i find it hard to say the words that i want to. Sometimes, i find it hard to express myself in words. I don't know why but maybe that's how life goes. You just have got no say at times but to accept the way it is. But when i've got the courage to do so, to say what i want to, it would either be creating a misunderstanding or i just felt that it's not appropriate to tell. I have this fear of losing, arguments and at the same time, i can't bear to face this problematic situation. So, what am i suppose to do? Overcome the fear and prepare for its consequences or should i bear with it and accept life just the way it is? Gosh, 90% of me says the 2nd option. But patience? How good can it be? Only time will tell.